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Pain In His Life

Pain In His Life is a diss track by Joe Budden targeting Saigon. Joe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims.

Released2009
Annotated8
ExplicitYes
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Lyrics & breakdown

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  1. 01

    [Intro]

    02

    Padded Room, February 24th

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    Joebuddentv.com

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    We up niggas

    05

    Internet soldiers

  2. 06

    I hope this nigga fight better than he can diss

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    You lose in both arenas, home and away, you like the Knicks

    08

    They call it fucking Slaughterhouse for a reason, nigga

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    Joey, nigga, fell for the trap, woo

  3. 10

    Told y'all

    11

    Uh, Joey

    12

    Nigga fell for the mouse trap

    13

    Nigga put cheese right on the mouse trap

  4. 14

    You came right to it, dick

    15

    Look, look, look

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    [Verse]

    17

    It's like a lose-lose, already my rep ruined

    18

    How I beat dude we know will accept losin'?

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    "Underachiever" was a underachiever

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    Almost thought you would come with the "Ether"

  6. 21

    I know he got niggas in his camp like, "spaz on him," gassin' him

    22

    Bafflin' him, real talk, some don't wanna see ya

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    That Scram shit'll put both hands around ya neck

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    Said you better get ya head fucked from under the cleaver

  7. 25

    I'm the one that'll beast ya

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    You got a gut feelin' you hot (Me?,) I think you can't stomach a fever

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    Can't think of why a wack nigga want it with me for

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    I leave my mark on you like it's one of ya features

  8. 29

    Nigga, ask how it feel to have Maino's face

    Multi-line diss block
    30

    I'm way ahead man, this ain't no race, stop playin'

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    I'm the bomb with the pen, I'm more like a bomb with no pin

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    How the fuck is Saigon gonna win?

    Block noteMakes identity part of the conflict

    TargetSaigon

    MeaningWhat it means: In “I'm way ahead man, this ain't no race, stop playin',” Joe Budden uses racial, ethnic, or cultural identity as part of the accusation directed at Saigon. Why it was said: Joe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims. The line shifts the dispute from individual skill to belonging and legitimacy, asking who has the right to claim authority inside the culture surrounding the record.

    ContextJoe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims.

  9. 33

    He a loss of interest, talkin' 'bout my son is senseless

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    So I make sure the dude can't see, smell or hear

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    Can't touch, can't taste, now he defenseless

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    'Cause ain't a bullet in this world he can bench press

  10. 37

    Speak Tahiry, I'ma speak Austin

    Multi-line diss block
    38

    The one that'll suck ya dick if you flossin'

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    Game old bitch that everybody was tossin'

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    The one that you literally begged for that abortion

    Block noteUses gendered or sexual humiliation

    TargetSaigon

    MeaningWhat it means: In “The one that'll suck ya dick if you flossin',” Joe Budden uses gendered or sexual language to question Saigon's masculinity or humiliate the target in front of the audience. Why it was said: Joe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims. The tactic tries to trigger an emotional reply and damage Saigon's public image, even though the framing itself can reproduce homophobic or sexist stereotypes.

    ContextJoe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims.

  11. 41

    So we both gone wild

    Multi-line diss block
    42

    Said, we both love hoes and that's just our style

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    But Sai if you think it's different, my nigga, you goin' senile

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    I just kiss mine and yours is the mother of ya child, blaow

    Block noteMakes the feud personal through family

    TargetSaigon

    MeaningWhat it means: In “I just kiss mine and yours is the mother of ya child, blaow,” Joe Budden brings a relative or family boundary into the exchange with Saigon, moving the dispute beyond music and into private life. Why it was said: Joe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims. Family references explain why the conflict feels personal: they raise the emotional cost for Saigon and make the line more consequential than a routine comparison of rap skill.

    ContextJoe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims.

  12. 45

    Shots peel at ya entourage

    Multi-line diss block
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    Nigga couldn't get a deal on Entourage

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    So like, how is it harder to be me?

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    If I lose in real life, but you can't even win on TV?

    Block noteForces the dispute into a direct contest

    TargetSaigon

    MeaningWhat it means: In “If I lose in real life, but you can't even win on TV?,” Joe Budden addresses Saigon as an opponent who must prove the claims being made rather than rely on reputation. Why it was said: Joe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims. The challenge narrows the argument to performance under pressure, where refusing or failing to answer can itself be presented as a loss for Saigon.

    ContextJoe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims.

  13. 49

    Me I'm probably iller, probably wit' gorillas

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    In ya lobby with the shotty and chinchillas, you a rapper or a bodybuilder?

    51

    I'll have him in the E.R

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    With Doc trying to put him back together like a bodybuilder

  14. 53

    Please tell me why dude Just Blaze signed

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    Can't even get a bassline outta Bassline

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    Look at the new kid sounding stupid

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    Nigga, I made Just more money than you did

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    The nerve of the loser

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    Keep trying to hide weak ass bars behind the work of producers

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    In the word of computers, is he M.I.A

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    'Cause he been fell off like Yung Berg on the scooter

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    So him and his bas' flow need to lay low

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    Couple red lights will ruin his whole stage show

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    Then put him on my payroll

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    How's he the Yardfather when I'm dictating where the grave go?

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    Been years, he's taking L's still

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    Turtle couldn't help him, maybe a shell will

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    Don't look like a winner to me

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    A small meal to a pitchfork, you lookin' like dinner to me

  18. 69

    Plus ya diss track sound like a beginner to me

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    Ya whole shine's like a dimmer to me, fight who, nigga?

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    You better know how we get it in Jerz

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    Velcro his tongue, hope dude stick to his word

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    Nigga, you'll be in an ally covered

    Multi-line diss block
    74

    And you don't love the kids, you just wanna make us think that you Sally Struthers

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    I'll pit you with the worse kind of men

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    Dudes who become everything they condemn

    Block noteShrinks the target into a dependent

    TargetSaigon

    MeaningWhat it means: In “And you don't love the kids, you just wanna make us think that you Sally Struthers,” Joe Budden recasts Saigon as a child, student, or minor-league figure who depends on a more powerful adult or senior artist. Why it was said: Joe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims. The hierarchy denies equality before the battle is judged: if Saigon is treated as a dependent, the target's challenge can be dismissed as imitation, immaturity, or ingratitude.

    ContextJoe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims.

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    You would think that jail learned him a lesson

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    Until he brag about e'rything he learned in jail

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    Nah, I don't think his struggle was lackin'

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    He did a long bid, came home and had trouble adaptin'

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    Afraid of adulthood, has trouble relaxin'

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    No choices, had to try his hustle at rappin'

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    Here's a jewel, maybe you should put ya first disc out on Amazon

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    Before you go fronting when the camera on

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    And the poor fans kept the hope

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    But prison was the only place he was next to blow

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    So he calls me a fag like he homophobic

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    'Cause they had him on his knees like, "Homo, hold it!"

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    Run around, be screamin', "Oh, don't poke it"

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    It's a small world, how you think Joe don't know it?

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    Guess there's where the lies get deeper

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    He went in a tight end and came out a wide receiver

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    There's bones in ya closet that you can't hide

    Multi-line diss block
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    Fans know you went to jail, me? I know why

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    Sai, you ain't brollic enough

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    Somebody better play third wheel and try to stop the fuck

    Block noteUses legal trouble as a pressure point

    TargetSaigon

    MeaningWhat it means: In “Fans know you went to jail, me? I know why,” Joe Budden invokes a case, arrest, imprisonment, or legal vulnerability to define Saigon through consequences outside the recording booth. Why it was said: Joe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims. The reference makes the attack feel verifiable and immediate, using a public consequence to challenge the control and invulnerability Saigon projects.

    ContextJoe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims.

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    'Cause I'll put it in fifth gear, like who he gon' threaten next?

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    Fill his whole body with metal, now he Weapon X

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    Had the upper hand from go

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    Shirt always off, how does it feel D'Angelo

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    To get naked like a down hooker?

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    My dudes outta town'll book ya

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    Ya whole gangsta's brown sugar

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    With no point to his vlog, had the world waitin'

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    Flexing for 10 minutes like he had a girl tape him

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    Just co-signed for you, said you had a classic

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    Now he got no time for you, wrote you off on taxes

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    Now he lonely, vulnerable, lookin' soft

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    Tried to help him, I been in his shoes, I just took 'em off

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    To put it simply, how can he offend me?

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    I can teach 'em how to live real major on an indie

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    So picture dude upsettin' me

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    Stop complaining and take control of your own fuckin' destiny

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    He blames radio, blames Atlantic

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    Craig Kalman, but I can't blame 'em, they panicked

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    Nobody scared he's like hockey

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    Retired for a minute, came back and nobody cared

    Multi-line diss block
    118

    So for me to take this serious, homes

    119

    Get Mook, Loaded Lux, Jin maybe Serius Jones

    120

    To help write your shit, make it brand and new

    Block noteChallenges the target's authorship

    TargetSaigon

    MeaningWhat it means: In “To help write your shit, make it brand and new,” Joe Budden argues that Saigon's material is not independently written, so the voice and skill presented to listeners cannot be credited fully to the target. Why it was said: Joe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims. Authorship is the source of a rapper's authority in this exchange; if the charge is believed, Saigon's verses stop serving as proof of lyrical ability.

    ContextJoe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims.

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    If not, look for the nation who abandoned you

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    Be mad at yourself and ask yourself

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    You know I'm a rap giant, why Plax yourself?

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    Dude went ahead, axed himself

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    He cut off his nose to spite his face, Mike Jack'd himself

    Multi-line diss block
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    Bryan, how the fuck you think lesser of me?

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    When you easily the lesser MC

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    Thought it'd be fun but that's deaded to me

    Block noteMakes the rejection unmistakably direct

    TargetSaigon

    MeaningWhat it means: In “Bryan, how the fuck you think lesser of me?,” Joe Budden drops any pretense of a subliminal and rejects Saigon in blunt, unqualified language. Why it was said: Joe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims. The direct wording removes plausible deniability: listeners are not left guessing whether Saigon is part of the dispute or whether a response is being invited.

    ContextJoe Budden and Saigon's dispute grew from an older line Saigon considered disrespectful and later interview comments. Their exchange became personal after Saigon's ‘Under Achiever,’ with Budden attacking Saigon's delayed album, management history, television exposure and family claims.

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    This point I'm battlin' my own perception, try and beat what's expected of me

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    Nino Bless said you was a bull, too

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    But I'm in widescreen, I ain't see that full view

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    I know how ya ho ass felt

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    Make it so you can't eat, put an extra hole in that belt

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    Ain't a gain in site

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    Cocoa Chanelle ain't the only nigga that'll put a pain in his life

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    Dead weight, get ya head straight

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    Cut the track off, listen to ya thoughts, checkmate